you know how people say those who's drunk belongs to the better lot cos they dunno what they did and what happened when they're drunk and how those who's sober has to undertake what lies ahead?
i'm not a weakling but this is my blog.
i wish this will not be publish but in the middle of the nite when everyone's sleeping...
'existingalternativess' is my alternative.
i am taken aback by my ignorance.
i am taken aback by my actions.
i cant be any clearer than now to feel the upset and hurt and the betrayal.
i cant be in a better position than now to feel how i shld be feeling.
i feel tmd ttm. seriously.
i wish someone could understand me better.
i know there r people there knowing.
but no, it's not enough.
if it's enough, i wouldnt be feeling this way.
whenever situations like this happened, i hate explaining and sharing.
i rather let it passed.
if it can be overcome, good for me.
if it doesnt, i'll get over it real soon.
tonight's supposed to be a happy day for me.
i finally see myself in my convo gown.
i did a quick snap. i tot i look amazingly great.
i'm supposed to go on my own.
but i needed someone and i asked ma to go with me.
i'm thankful to my parents tonight.
but i wasnt feeling exactly happy now.
i have tons in me but there're things i cant really mentioned.
i dunno how to go abt starting it.
so, let's leave it unsaid and marked today as a mixed emotional day.
i'm sure i'll be okay by end of the week.
cos i'm hy, the alrighty mighty.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
have always wanted to celebrate mid-autumn festival.
beside CNY and xmas.. mid-autumn is the next one that gives me the feeling of being with ur loves one as a festive holiday.
becos of my work, becos sep has become a month of travelling to china, i did not have the chance of doing the norms during 中秋节。
没有赏月，吃月饼，看节目。
i doubt he knows i actually hope we could visit chinese garden during mid-autumn and visit 河畔during CNY. neither will he knows i love xmas lightings and njoy photos of it.
for e past 2 years, we nv did any of these.
是我的问题吗？还是这些根本不重要？
beside CNY and xmas.. mid-autumn is the next one that gives me the feeling of being with ur loves one as a festive holiday.
becos of my work, becos sep has become a month of travelling to china, i did not have the chance of doing the norms during 中秋节。
没有赏月，吃月饼，看节目。
i doubt he knows i actually hope we could visit chinese garden during mid-autumn and visit 河畔during CNY. neither will he knows i love xmas lightings and njoy photos of it.
for e past 2 years, we nv did any of these.
是我的问题吗？还是这些根本不重要？
my dearest BCF and friends!!
this is for u!!!
** suggestion to call hotel **
Cherie: ok, i try again
HY: I called.. no use leh.. they speak thai.. very scary.. like ghost shows.. FML!
Lei: huh.. LOLLLLLLL, they dont speak english?
HY: LOL, they speak leh... i pick e speak to operator but they will start off w thai, after that play music! wah laus!!!
Lei: LOL
HY: Damn lor!! when sure is back i get her to call n listen. e contact point is damn close leh. cos i called using hp.. so its like thai girl speaking into ur ears.. F!
Lei: then scary anot?
HY: Sibei scary can!! later ask jia her exp! LOL
Cherie: called, they checked in but nv answer hotel call. hahah! HY so funny... i push the phone to my dad..
***
seriosuly, if it's not becos of them 3... i will nv call over lor..
thai = horror to me
what a nite!
loves these girls!!
this is for u!!!
** suggestion to call hotel **
Cherie: ok, i try again
HY: I called.. no use leh.. they speak thai.. very scary.. like ghost shows.. FML!
Lei: huh.. LOLLLLLLL, they dont speak english?
HY: LOL, they speak leh... i pick e speak to operator but they will start off w thai, after that play music! wah laus!!!
Lei: LOL
HY: Damn lor!! when sure is back i get her to call n listen. e contact point is damn close leh. cos i called using hp.. so its like thai girl speaking into ur ears.. F!
Lei: then scary anot?
HY: Sibei scary can!! later ask jia her exp! LOL
Cherie: called, they checked in but nv answer hotel call. hahah! HY so funny... i push the phone to my dad..
***
seriosuly, if it's not becos of them 3... i will nv call over lor..
thai = horror to me
what a nite!
loves these girls!!
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
Everyone has our fair share of problems and issues.
It's only how u see them and how u want to resolve them.
At e end of e day, it is ur decision and choice and no one will be in the best position to tell u what to do.
Everyone knows how to give advices.. But how many actually knows what's best for u?
Think abt it. There's only urself cos 命是你的！
Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
It's only how u see them and how u want to resolve them.
At e end of e day, it is ur decision and choice and no one will be in the best position to tell u what to do.
Everyone knows how to give advices.. But how many actually knows what's best for u?
Think abt it. There's only urself cos 命是你的！
Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Rewatched 唐心風暴due to some reasons.
Some of e classic pick ups from e show::
如果你真的喜歡一個人，就不會整天只記得她做錯的事！
我承認我說很多謊話，但不是因為我另結新歡。是因為我不想在跟你吵！
原來人要等到事情發生時，才會感到害怕。
感動歸感動，我知道我們永遠不可能。
一個人，如果不開心，其實不是想找人喝酒聊天，而是很想寫東西，把自己的心情寫出來。
不要緊的，最重要是自己要開心！
Alrighty... That's all for now..
Will do a second part as I continue with it.
Mentally drained.
Less than 5hrs of sleep.
I am so dead.
Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
Some of e classic pick ups from e show::
如果你真的喜歡一個人，就不會整天只記得她做錯的事！
我承認我說很多謊話，但不是因為我另結新歡。是因為我不想在跟你吵！
原來人要等到事情發生時，才會感到害怕。
感動歸感動，我知道我們永遠不可能。
一個人，如果不開心，其實不是想找人喝酒聊天，而是很想寫東西，把自己的心情寫出來。
不要緊的，最重要是自己要開心！
Alrighty... That's all for now..
Will do a second part as I continue with it.
Mentally drained.
Less than 5hrs of sleep.
I am so dead.
Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
I'm so happy I found my watch that I wanna leave a po for it! Mhahaha!!!
If I didn't look under e bed a second time, I will nv have found it.
The 1 place I had in mind is e folder bag which I've been carrying for the past month. However, it's quite unlikely to be there cos I can't be keeping my watch in e bag instead of leaving it at home!
Whatever it is, I'm super duper happy now!
Every little thing counts now to make me happy.
Even if it's for a second.
3 more days to FRIDAY!!
Shall hang on till then!!!
Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld
Sunday, September 5, 2010
by the end of last nite, i was totally exhausted.
i cant even last past 12 midnight before i totally KO till this morning.
i even told my dad not to switch off the internet access as I'll be watching overnite drama.
how ambitious of me. tsk.
apparently, i guess i wasnt the only one. it seems laopo was tired too.
i can tell since both of us have been meeting every alternate days.
i guess the reason why i'm exhausted by the end of yesterday was also partly due to the mental emotions that i've been going through.
and it's definitely not helping with the amount of work i need to face in the office, the numerous people i need to meet and the numbers of queries i need to answer.
On top of it, i wish i could have some time in the office to clear my stuff.
I'm so worried at this point that i do not have time to rush out all my papers to be circulated.
whatever!
anyway, when both the physical and mental combi joined forces, the amount of rest time lessen.
that basically explained why i'm so nua today.
sometimes, i really wonder what it is between us that make people put in that bit of effort just for you.
who are the people you are willing to go all out for and who are those who dont?
do we have a balance for this? or will we ever?
i know F&C has been standing by me all these while. at times, i feel as if i'm imposing on them.
whenever i meet laopo, jason sends me home.
whenever i meet FS, they sends me home.
i dont know how to tell them that i'm okay.
afterall this is all part and parcel of life.
that nite, i asked FS if they are keen to watch midnight show.
they agreed almost immediately.
i didnt even considered if they need some time on their own.
i didnt even considered if they need to rest after a day of work.
i hesitated with the booking of the tics, but went ahead in the the end.
by the end of the show at 2am, it strikes me that people are also tired.
who are obligated to spend time with you?
i feel bad.
even laopo needs some personal time with jason.
so who am i to get them to accompany me?
right now, i can only plan my time such that i dont feel alone.
it doesnt use to be this way.
but times have changed.
if i dont see any plan for any day, i start looking for one.
the only day i took a break is sunday.
the day i rest from all the everyday work from monday - saturday.
i cant even last past 12 midnight before i totally KO till this morning.
i even told my dad not to switch off the internet access as I'll be watching overnite drama.
how ambitious of me. tsk.
apparently, i guess i wasnt the only one. it seems laopo was tired too.
i can tell since both of us have been meeting every alternate days.
i guess the reason why i'm exhausted by the end of yesterday was also partly due to the mental emotions that i've been going through.
and it's definitely not helping with the amount of work i need to face in the office, the numerous people i need to meet and the numbers of queries i need to answer.
On top of it, i wish i could have some time in the office to clear my stuff.
I'm so worried at this point that i do not have time to rush out all my papers to be circulated.
whatever!
anyway, when both the physical and mental combi joined forces, the amount of rest time lessen.
that basically explained why i'm so nua today.
sometimes, i really wonder what it is between us that make people put in that bit of effort just for you.
who are the people you are willing to go all out for and who are those who dont?
do we have a balance for this? or will we ever?
i know F&C has been standing by me all these while. at times, i feel as if i'm imposing on them.
whenever i meet laopo, jason sends me home.
whenever i meet FS, they sends me home.
i dont know how to tell them that i'm okay.
afterall this is all part and parcel of life.
that nite, i asked FS if they are keen to watch midnight show.
they agreed almost immediately.
i didnt even considered if they need some time on their own.
i didnt even considered if they need to rest after a day of work.
i hesitated with the booking of the tics, but went ahead in the the end.
by the end of the show at 2am, it strikes me that people are also tired.
who are obligated to spend time with you?
i feel bad.
even laopo needs some personal time with jason.
so who am i to get them to accompany me?
right now, i can only plan my time such that i dont feel alone.
it doesnt use to be this way.
but times have changed.
if i dont see any plan for any day, i start looking for one.
the only day i took a break is sunday.
the day i rest from all the everyday work from monday - saturday.
alrighty, my mum's like quarreling with someone on the line now.
i cant focus on my tots now.
need to check on her.
till then.. have a great week ppl!!!!
Thursday, September 2, 2010
歌名:爱不疚 主唱:林峰
收藏在眼眸
常徘徊左右
爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑后
能全然退后
你开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚
讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到后或会走
这种恋爱太罕有
不须真正拥有
成全衷心祝福然后就放手
放手放开所有
彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有
还有这个好友
已经已经足够
遥远是宇宙
静静在背后
去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚
讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有
不须真正拥有
成全
多舍不得仍然是放手
放手放开所有
彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有
还有这个好友
已经已经足够
放手我的牵挂
找不到尽头
放手期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许爱很深厚
然而我早看得透
放手至可拥有
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