you know how people say those who's drunk belongs to the better lot cos they dunno what they did and what happened when they're drunk and how those who's sober has to undertake what lies ahead?

i'm not a weakling but this is my blog.
i wish this will not be publish but in the middle of the nite when everyone's sleeping...
'existingalternativess' is my alternative.

i am taken aback by my ignorance.
i am taken aback by my actions.
i cant be any clearer than now to feel the upset and hurt and the betrayal.
i cant be in a better position than now to feel how i shld be feeling.

i feel tmd ttm. seriously.
i wish someone could understand me better.
i know there r people there knowing.
but no, it's not enough.
if it's enough, i wouldnt be feeling this way.

whenever situations like this happened, i hate explaining and sharing.
i rather let it passed.
if it can be overcome, good for me.
if it doesnt, i'll get over it real soon.

tonight's supposed to be a happy day for me.
i finally see myself in my convo gown.
i did a quick snap. i tot i look amazingly great.
i'm supposed to go on my own.
but i needed someone and i asked ma to go with me.

i'm thankful to my parents tonight.
but i wasnt feeling exactly happy now.
i have tons in me but there're things i cant really mentioned.
i dunno how to go abt starting it.
so, let's leave it unsaid and marked today as a mixed emotional day.

i'm sure i'll be okay by end of the week.
cos i'm hy, the alrighty mighty.