i cant even last past 12 midnight before i totally KO till this morning.
i even told my dad not to switch off the internet access as I'll be watching overnite drama.
how ambitious of me. tsk.
apparently, i guess i wasnt the only one. it seems laopo was tired too.
i can tell since both of us have been meeting every alternate days.
i guess the reason why i'm exhausted by the end of yesterday was also partly due to the mental emotions that i've been going through.
and it's definitely not helping with the amount of work i need to face in the office, the numerous people i need to meet and the numbers of queries i need to answer.
On top of it, i wish i could have some time in the office to clear my stuff.
I'm so worried at this point that i do not have time to rush out all my papers to be circulated.
whatever!
anyway, when both the physical and mental combi joined forces, the amount of rest time lessen.
that basically explained why i'm so nua today.
sometimes, i really wonder what it is between us that make people put in that bit of effort just for you.
who are the people you are willing to go all out for and who are those who dont?
do we have a balance for this? or will we ever?
i know F&C has been standing by me all these while. at times, i feel as if i'm imposing on them.
whenever i meet laopo, jason sends me home.
whenever i meet FS, they sends me home.
i dont know how to tell them that i'm okay.
afterall this is all part and parcel of life.
that nite, i asked FS if they are keen to watch midnight show.
they agreed almost immediately.
i didnt even considered if they need some time on their own.
i didnt even considered if they need to rest after a day of work.
i hesitated with the booking of the tics, but went ahead in the the end.
by the end of the show at 2am, it strikes me that people are also tired.
who are obligated to spend time with you?
i feel bad.
even laopo needs some personal time with jason.
so who am i to get them to accompany me?
right now, i can only plan my time such that i dont feel alone.
it doesnt use to be this way.
but times have changed.
if i dont see any plan for any day, i start looking for one.
the only day i took a break is sunday.
the day i rest from all the everyday work from monday - saturday.
alrighty, my mum's like quarreling with someone on the line now.
i cant focus on my tots now.
need to check on her.
till then.. have a great week ppl!!!!
