this dec. this xmas.
coming jan. coming bday.
i'm going to get:
bb bold.
a new watch and hopefully still enough budget..
a LV french for myself.
in life, if you dont even know when to pamper urself, no one will start pampering you.
i dont want to sound emo or depress.
but i guess i have seen enough, heard enough and experience enough to know that
love is not all abt giving.
if loving does not bring abt happiness, dont hope for it.
how vulnerable can a r/s get.
how can a young couple at the secondary era swear that love is a happy ending.
how can they ever live as if they will be together for the rest of their life.
how many life partners are exactly a follow through since they get together?
how do one determine togetherness for life.
moving past secondary era, JC or poly days emerge.
then, how many can swear to be faithful without looking or taking a glance ard the surroundings.
just as vulnerable as the sec sch days.
graduating from school and stepping into the society.
how can one endure the nv ending temptations?
be it people, the lifestyles, the interest and the likes & dislikes.
how then can 2 people swear to go through thick and thin together?
as i gain my wisdom as i grow, i nv once stop thinking abt the life ahead.
whats the future i want.
what then will i call is the happiness i desire for?
often, i look ard seeing young couples.
i nv stop wondering if they know what lies ahead of them.
love is indeed a painful experience to go through.
the tot of seeing them happily together and yet moves ahead of time to 'feel' them may not be together in the future, i dislike that thought. but that is life.
how torturous can that get.
i'll be 24 soon.
i know my friends have all been there.
i dont want to be worrying abt r/s differences.
i often hope for fairytale like scenes.
and watching too much dramas is causing me to sink further.
age' catching up on me.
it has always been my dream to get married at 23.
now that it is not going to happen, duhz!
i stop dreaming and wake up from the 'marriage-ous' phase.
reality is cruel.
but i guess being courageous and strong is a must if you want to survive well.
i hate to admit certain issues.
but if trying is not working and it becomes trying too hard..
then it is best if things are left as it is.
nothing turns out well if we need to try too hard to accomplish it.
- HY
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i'm really happy that my sis manage to find her happiness and is engaged (per say).
it's really not easy to move to that.
she is now going to spend her life with someone she knows is the one.
i'm also happy for her that she now has a flat she calls her own.
though it will be some time, but at least it's firm.
wishing her the very best for her future!
i'm truely happy from the bottom of my heart.
