you know how people say those who's drunk belongs to the better lot cos they dunno what they did and what happened when they're drunk and how those who's sober has to undertake what lies ahead?

i'm not a weakling but this is my blog.
i wish this will not be publish but in the middle of the nite when everyone's sleeping...
'existingalternativess' is my alternative.

i am taken aback by my ignorance.
i am taken aback by my actions.
i cant be any clearer than now to feel the upset and hurt and the betrayal.
i cant be in a better position than now to feel how i shld be feeling.

i feel tmd ttm. seriously.
i wish someone could understand me better.
i know there r people there knowing.
but no, it's not enough.
if it's enough, i wouldnt be feeling this way.

whenever situations like this happened, i hate explaining and sharing.
i rather let it passed.
if it can be overcome, good for me.
if it doesnt, i'll get over it real soon.

tonight's supposed to be a happy day for me.
i finally see myself in my convo gown.
i did a quick snap. i tot i look amazingly great.
i'm supposed to go on my own.
but i needed someone and i asked ma to go with me.

i'm thankful to my parents tonight.
but i wasnt feeling exactly happy now.
i have tons in me but there're things i cant really mentioned.
i dunno how to go abt starting it.
so, let's leave it unsaid and marked today as a mixed emotional day.

i'm sure i'll be okay by end of the week.
cos i'm hy, the alrighty mighty.

Poisonously Irresistible

I'm so gonna get you!

 

my taste! a combi of both!

happy advanced bday present for myself i guess! *grinz*

have always wanted to celebrate mid-autumn festival.
beside CNY and xmas.. mid-autumn is the next one that gives me the feeling of being with ur loves one as a festive holiday.

becos of my work, becos sep has become a month of travelling to china, i did not have the chance of doing the norms during 中秋节。
没有赏月，吃月饼，看节目。

i doubt he knows i actually hope we could visit chinese garden during mid-autumn and visit 河畔during CNY. neither will he knows i love xmas lightings and njoy photos of it.

for e past 2 years, we nv did any of these.
是我的问题吗？还是这些根本不重要？

my dearest BCF and friends!!
this is for u!!!

** suggestion to call hotel **

Cherie: ok, i try again

HY: I called.. no use leh.. they speak thai.. very scary.. like ghost shows.. FML!

Lei: huh.. LOLLLLLLL, they dont speak english?

HY: LOL, they speak leh... i pick e speak to operator but they will start off w thai, after that play music! wah laus!!!

Lei: LOL

HY: Damn lor!! when sure is back i get her to call n listen. e contact point is damn close leh. cos i called using hp.. so its like thai girl speaking into ur ears.. F!

Lei: then scary anot?

HY: Sibei scary can!! later ask jia her exp! LOL

Cherie: called, they checked in but nv answer hotel call. hahah! HY so funny... i push the phone to my dad..

***
seriosuly, if it's not becos of them 3... i will nv call over lor..
thai = horror to me


what a nite!
loves these girls!!

当你在做任何事情或决定的时候，请不要只是想到你自己。
也许在一开始的时候，我就不因该对你有任何期待。
更不因该替你考虑。

我没有我相像的这么坚强，可是我有在努力。
如果以前我可以，现在，我也一样可以。

Everyone has our fair share of problems and issues.

It's only how u see them and how u want to resolve them.

At e end of e day, it is ur decision and choice and no one will be in the best position to tell u what to do.

Everyone knows how to give advices.. But how many actually knows what's best for u?

Think abt it. There's only urself cos 命是你的！

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Rewatched 唐心風暴due to some reasons.
Some of e classic pick ups from e show::

如果你真的喜歡一個人，就不會整天只記得她做錯的事！

我承認我說很多謊話，但不是因為我另結新歡。是因為我不想在跟你吵！

原來人要等到事情發生時，才會感到害怕。

感動歸感動，我知道我們永遠不可能。

一個人，如果不開心，其實不是想找人喝酒聊天，而是很想寫東西，把自己的心情寫出來。

不要緊的，最重要是自己要開心！

Alrighty... That's all for now..
Will do a second part as I continue with it.

Mentally drained.
Less than 5hrs of sleep.
I am so dead.


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