Chapter 28.2

this dec. this xmas.
coming jan. coming bday.

i'm going to get:
bb bold.
a new watch and hopefully still enough budget..
a LV french for myself.

in life, if you dont even know when to pamper urself, no one will start pampering you.

i dont want to sound emo or depress.
but i guess i have seen enough, heard enough and experience enough to know that
love is not all abt giving.
if loving does not bring abt happiness, dont hope for it.

how vulnerable can a r/s get.
how can a young couple at the secondary era swear that love is a happy ending.
how can they ever live as if they will be together for the rest of their life.
how many life partners are exactly a follow through since they get together?
how do one determine togetherness for life.

moving past secondary era, JC or poly days emerge.
then, how many can swear to be faithful without looking or taking a glance ard the surroundings.
just as vulnerable as the sec sch days.

graduating from school and stepping into the society.
how can one endure the nv ending temptations?
be it people, the lifestyles, the interest and the likes & dislikes.
how then can 2 people swear to go through thick and thin together?

as i gain my wisdom as i grow, i nv once stop thinking abt the life ahead.
whats the future i want.
what then will i call is the happiness i desire for?

often, i look ard seeing young couples.
i nv stop wondering if they know what lies ahead of them.
love is indeed a painful experience to go through.
the tot of seeing them happily together and yet moves ahead of time to 'feel' them may not be together in the future, i dislike that thought. but that is life.
how torturous can that get.

i'll be 24 soon.
i know my friends have all been there.
i dont want to be worrying abt r/s differences.
i often hope for fairytale like scenes.
and watching too much dramas is causing me to sink further.

age' catching up on me.
it has always been my dream to get married at 23.
now that it is not going to happen, duhz!
i stop dreaming and wake up from the 'marriage-ous' phase.

reality is cruel.
but i guess being courageous and strong is a must if you want to survive well.
i hate to admit certain issues.
but if trying is not working and it becomes trying too hard..
then it is best if things are left as it is.

nothing turns out well if we need to try too hard to accomplish it.
- HY

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i'm really happy that my sis manage to find her happiness and is engaged (per say).
it's really not easy to move to that.
she is now going to spend her life with someone she knows is the one.
i'm also happy for her that she now has a flat she calls her own.
though it will be some time, but at least it's firm.
wishing her the very best for her future!
i'm truely happy from the bottom of my heart.

Chapter 28.1

hello netizens!
the queen is back from the wonderland of the great china capital!
gosh was the whole trip breath-taking.
though the only regret is there aint any shopping done.. (but this is expected)..
still the experience of scenery and enchanting views of the numerous landscape is something priceless.
on top of it.. the winter freeze and cooling breeze is way beyond what the dollars can give.

seen the lake freeze before?
seen the sun setting right infront of you at 4-ish pm?
seen the great wall cover with bits & pieces of *dirty* snow?
seen the xmas decor in china?
the wooper tall & magnificant xmas tree? me loveeesss!
did a jump shot at a place holy-ly near heaven?!
a cammie is soooo impt for this trip with no shopping! ahhaha!

anyway.. here's some snapshots of really nice viewss..
there's more. i'll try to be hardworking to upload them... *_*

Chapter 26

Apologizing does not mean that you are wrong and the other person is right.
It just means that you value your relationship more than you ego.

(xtract from jack' blog)

nice.

Chapter 25

quite sians.
i should really not get myself too bothered about all this shit.

Chapter 24

'pick up the damn calls lah.'

short sentence and one wonders how long it will take to heal.

i want to be out of e sight.

Chapter 22

back from bintan with LPM.
other than losing my cap and the HPs saga..
i really think that this trip is just right for us being our first trip together.

dont be surprise we haven been away as a group.
i guess it is really not easy for us to TRAVEL and all this, if i may recall, was confirmed at Angela's place for Stan bday celebration.

Though the food sucks, and service took foreva,
it's really the company that matters the most.
at least this is better than sleeping before 12 or 1am every night unlike HJ last trip.
not too good to name, but really.. LPM prove that we are no joke.

just photo taking with 3 cams can clock up to a thousand pictures.
how to control?
only 3days 2 night leh... if we are going for longer trip, which we may, *hint Taiwan*
i bet the outcome will be the same.

and becos there's 1000 photos to adjust..
it will really take quite some time to have it done up.
i will try to do some collages up..
till then...

it's time to work hard for another week.
boohoo...

Chapter 21

my mood swing is so accurate that it nv fails to pre-em me of the monthly signs.
totally awesome.
i wish it would not hit into my china trip and since the holiday is back to back weekend,
i have to suffer for this bintan trip.
gosh!
there goes the water sports.
or maybe not.
there's tampon rem?!

just the cramp.
fwah.
sians.
on a happier note.. i'm on LEAVE tml!
yayness!!!