have been doing my regular running to make sure i can complete the race, and hopefully under 1hr.
clock a final training of 5K (damn lousily) on thurs becos i've been so tired over work the entire week and also did a 8K earlier on tues.

As prep, i stop drinking for 2 weeks becos alcohol just doesnt sound healthy to me. LOL
Also make sure i'm supposed to have enough sleep the nite before.
Hence, rejected a trip to cheesecake cafe on sat.
p.s. cheesecake cafe is seriously the new dessert cafe to go to. *grinz*

But then, either i was too xcited or the body clock was spolit.
i just couldnt get a good nite sleep. mad sad.
cos i know clearly without enough rest, i wont have the mental stength to complete the race within my target.
afterall, my running style has always been on being 'focus' and relying on my mental strength.
Long dist running to me, is really all in the mind.

The first 2.5K to the waterpoint is bearable. Since my min has always been a 4 to 5K.
I guess timing was lost due to cutting lanes and runners blocking the route with their 'jog'.
I've lost count on how many side-centers i cut, how many curbs i've cut and how many 'tsk' i made.
The fun is also there seeing Cherie & waving at her upon our first U-Turn. Like.. u managed to spot someone u know amongst so many of us!! Moral support (mentally - again).

Then the torture came after the 5K. p.s. and the waterpoint is beyond the 5K mark lor.
and the irritating mental/inner conversation started.
Josh's tweet keeps repeating in my mind. Why would people pay to run and wake up so early!
Seriously.. i keep asking why am i doing this.
And the devils keep prompting me to stop and can walk.
but like huh?! 5K and walk? Very far to walk another 5K lor.
And no way shall i give in when i know i need to do it within like an hour?
or complete the race without walking.
So i pushed and pushed. cursed & sweared so hard throughout to the 3rd waterpoint.
However, I must say the route isnt that far as it seems bet 2nd waterpoint & 3rd waterpoint.

Taking a final cup.. I need to make it back but my timing was bad lah.
Already 50mins then. Considering my 1K took 7mins, at most i'll reach the finishing line 1:04hrs.
Damn sad lah! But what to do.. just got to keep running.
At 9K, my mind was so tired that all i could think of is going back for the bananas.
And my energy was so drained i cant even dash at the last 200 / 100M.
Very weak, And all i told myself was.. 'its only a matter of diff in the sec... forget it'.
And tons of people just zoom-ed past me. KNS!

Immediately caught sight of Cherie and she's damn nice to offer to get me drinks and asking me to stay put.
But i seriously cant. cos i need to pee.
and the urge came when i stop running lor. not throughout the race.
so i cant wait for her there and went to the mobile toilet instead.
when i'm out, she's nowhere in sight lor.
super chuiz. i spent the next 20mins looking for her.
and trust me, everyone looks like her or she looks alike to most of them.
i waved to alot of 'unknown' people.
walked hell lots to see if they are her.
walked ard the ending point, taxi stand, fields and finally decided to head back to where we're supposed to meet.
stuipid or what?! i shld have gone back earlier rite.. but cannot leh..
cos she asked me stay put so i went back there to wait for her. LOL

ok lah! overall, it was a really good race for me though i didnt make it under an hr.
i tot i still did quite well with this timing of mine.
cos i'm expecting myself at 1.04hrs to 1.08hrs.
so, rightfully, based on the pace today, i did better than what my legs and body coordinated.
talking abt pace.. i cant find any pacer lor. zzz

anyway.. i'll still be doing my regular run though the race is over.
so dont ask me what i'm doing at bukit batok when i said i'm there on weekday after work.
till then!vYes, the 'born in the 1980s' cousins are a superb bunch. amazingly beautiful!!!

partified so hard over the past weekends that i was close to voiceless for 3 consecutive mondays.
totally awesome gang of HH Club who simply loves nothing but to club.
i mean, we do love k-ing, and other healthy activities.
but no doubt, clubbing is top priority.

i was also glad f&c finally have some quality time spent. though we just went to cheng ling's concert the week before. visitng BP was yet another successful conquer by the ladies, considering the amount of perspires and walking we had gone through. we r still very us by clocking close to 200 photos in just one outing! hahaha!
looking forward to more quality time w you!!

above is how shag i was by end of the day.

that aside, i also met up with the 2 darlings. no photos. cos we r more emotional whenever we meet.
it's amazing how i always love hanging out with them for pure comfort.
we really need not say much to be there.
i hope she'll be happy and just go xplore the world.
i hope she'll njoy her marriage.

finally... i'm training rather hard in my running.
not just for GE but for overall.
I did 20rds today! So duhz POM!!!
1km-5.27, 5 complete rounds: 10.30, 5km-30.32, 20complete rds-52.21! Hahahah
let's see how i'll fare this coming thursday!!

xoxo

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喜悅，快樂，是開心的。一切都值得！

it took me 2.5years to complete my degree.
PT degree to be exact.
the emphasize on PT because it is really not easy.

I am supposed to do it within 2 years. that's my plan.
But becos i didnt count my AUs properly, I need to do another half year more.
I remembered how upset i was then.
another half a year more means another half a year of suffering.
suffering becos doing PT and FT is really different.

can you imagine rushing to class after work?
can you imagine buring your nights and weekends on assignments?
can you imagine doing assignments in the office while your colleagues are out for lunch?
can you imagine studying for exams when there's still work waiting for you?
doing PT is just different with all these sacrifices.

friends around me over the 2.5yrs wondered how did i even do it.
i did not exactly spent my weekends on assignments.
weekends were spent with james.
playing volleyball. chilling. having dinner.
weekdays were also spent with james.
having dinner. watching tvieewws.

to be frank, i seriously have no ideas how I've come this far.
i make it seems so easy that my colleague is in Unisim now but finds it so tough with the numerous TMAs and ECAs. Not forgetting the quizzes that come at the start of every 2 lessons per course.

self-discipline? time management?
perhaps. these are the only 2 things i know has pushed me these far.
not forgetting that i always aim for an A, not just a pass.
I wouldn't say i did well.
But compared to many others, I'm supposed i did.

It's hard to xplain to people my rationale.
I'm a super duper PON-TAN queen for classes.
The habit has been with me since poly days.
I guess you just need to understand yourself before making any decision?
I nv once felt guilty for not attending class.
cos all the classes i missed, i know i can afford to.
why waste 5hrs or maybe even more for me going to class when you know you can study on your own?
like seriously?
instead, i spend the 5hrs working on my assignment in replacement of school day!
and viola! that's how i find time to pator over the weekends.
it was a sacrifice.
again, i wonder if he knows.

i always plan it so nicely that i nv miss any of our dates and i nv request for not meeting him unless i really have to.
i do worked throughout the night.
but i njoy sleeping, hence, i dont really work till like 3am.
i'm just confident of my work.

i did not graduate with a high 4.5 GPA.
but it's still slightly over 4.
and i believe, this is good enough for me.
and i'm uber proud of it.

getting a degree is definitely not an option in my education.
if i want a degree to begin with, i would have applied for it after my NP days.
i plan for a 'diploma' route for my life.
getting a degree is definitely way beyond my limits.
if not becos i'm with NIE, i wouldnt have sign up.
not that NIE needs it lah. but i need a career advancement.
without a degree, i cant really move up the ladder.
and the job at NIE wasnt my plan initially also.
so, well... somehow, things just fall into place.

i know my parent was delighted with my decision.
finally like after 3yrs since i graduated from NP, i told them i'm applying to get my degree.
they didnt say much.
xcept this from my dad:
'好咯，去讀，多少錢，跟爸爸講。你自己有心讀，想讀什麽，都是為你自己好。'
that's xactly what he told me.
wah lau, sibei 心酸 can.
anyway, that's all he said lah.
and i did everything on my own after that.
application, registering, going for interview, being enrolled into the schools.
i go for my classes. i do my work.
every semester, they paid the fees and i produced my result slip.
i know almost all PTimers paid their own school fees.
Only i asked my parent to pay for me.
Only i am the one asking them for school fees every sem lah!
But i'm not rich lor. I dont earn much also.
that's beside the point.
what i want to say is, that's the rs over the 2.5yrs.

every sem.. i make sure i did well as a form of repayment.
I gave them all As in my first result slip leh.
5 courses. And subsequently, the results maintained till i get a B after 3 sems and my mom asked..
'this time got B!!! nv work hard enuff izzit!'
see... even they think my As can 隨隨便便就有one leh!'
apparently, that's what james tot too.
which got me really pissed.
if it's so easy, how come my peers are not getting it?
not only did they not get it, some did not even pass can!
so what give them the impression A can be scored easily.

remembered the times i quarrelled with james cos getting As become a norm and hence, there's no encouragement and appreciation from him.
the no. of sacrifices made to get that As.
the double effort to finish every assignments wayyy before deadline.
he hardly shares my joy when i received my results.
and so, it becomes just me alone waiting in anticipation every sem for the release of my grades.

finally making it through to the last sem for strategy class.
a damn killer paper for everyone in business school.
surprisingly, it turns out very different for me.
i didnt score well for this course but the 3 weekends burnt for the class is definitely worth it.
i didnt know i can speak my way in front of a class.
neither do i know, this is the class i njoyed the most over for my whole unisim studies.
probably, it's really the 1pm-7pm and 9am -6pm in consecutive sat & sun that bond us so well.
everyone becomes everyone's friends.
and so, it's probably a good choice that i miscalculated my AUs right from the start.
i'm not as upset since cos i get to be in the same cohort as my yr 1 mates who needed 3 yrs to complete their programme.

taking up degree, becomes a matching staus quo with you.
your mum asked me when we first met, 'if i'm doing my degree.'
i cannot imagine if my answer was a NO at that time.
will i be look down upon then?
at that instance, i'm so glad i'm being accepted into the University and that i said i'm doing my PT degree.
Do you exactly know how i feel?
the degree was meant for my career advancement.
but later, it changes to match your status.
I seriously worked hard over the 2.5yrs maintaining and doing the best i can.
Not failing anyone's expectations.
Not my parents, not myself and most importantly, not you.
I dont recall using studies as an excuse to not meeting you.
the only times i get really mad, was when exams are round the corners and i needed time to mug.

3 months ago, i remembered telling you, sharing with you, how i wanted my convo to be.
you to be there. you to share my joy.
parhaps, convo to you is nothing.
i dont see your excitement when i told you.
but still, i continue to say what i want and how i see the convo to be.

yessterday was the day.
the day i waited for, a year ago.
for a split second, i do hope you sense my joy.

it was a really good day.
i had so much fun.
a day that i have, like how i felt on my 21st birthday.
being myself. doing and requesting for things that i declare is my day.
even MJ at nite was good for me.
what more shld i ask for?



too xcited to sleep weel the nite before. pufft eyes. still.. loves the eyes!



the strong support behind my every decisions.



my 2 sweethearts that i've no complaints abt.



finally, i've graduated! POM!



looking great!

Unisim Convo 2010!

<3! <3! <3!

畢業咯！

It suddenly strike upon me on how you checked through every single contacts of my msn and fb and demanded that I delete the ex.bf off the list.

I remembered how strongly I argued that it’s merely a contact and to prove that nothing is going on, you deleted it in front of me.

Staring at my contact list now, I cant help but smile at ‘urs’, thinking… it’s merely a contact.
Let me show you what I mean.
Having you in the list doesn’t mean we are in contact, are we?

To think this is how I’m proving my point.


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