Either you continue with the search or give up what you are looking for?
People following me would have know that I face really bad stuff at work. It is unbearable, totally miserable to me. Whole load of craps!
People growing up w me would have know that me being happy, it's e utmost important principle. I can be wout money, wout a job but so long I am happy, that's all that matter.
Afterall, u often hear ppl saying life is short, isn't it?
I really think that after so long, nothing or no one else matter more than me. At the end of the day, if I'm not haPpy, I dont even care if u are.
Treat me well, u'll get it back in multiple times.
U can say that that's selfish of me. But what's wrong w loving ownself more than anything else?
You really think that in this world, there are still people out there willing to sacrifice n die for u?
Sorry lor.. I won't die for anyone except:
U're my dad, my mom, my sis, my husband or my children.
Sorry friends, I'm being truthful, I can't possible give up my life for u, but I will always give u the best I could.
I know how contradicting I am. I know how I've said how much I love my job. But seriously, things change. The person may not have change, but the way things work may have. 6 months are more than enough a time period to test things.
So long I began shutting things off, you know that you have no case on me.
Likewise for rs. Once I shut off, it means enough.
Dreams and plans don't always work out, do they
Neither do birthday wishes. So why are we still celebrating bday every year?
Emo much? Yes, I am.
I feel sad at myself and if I continue to plan or think abt my life 2yrs down, I would want nothing but e best and fulfilling my dreams as far as possible.
p.s works suck big time! I wish leonardo can bring me in to my dreams and I fucking kill those people I hate in my dream. May them suffer e pain before they wake up in shock.
p.p.s note to self: nv to realise u are not suitable for each other only at the point of getting married. Bloody painful and irresponsible on any one party.
p.p.p.s I didn't know all along I have been assuming things that won't be happening anytime soon. God damn assumption.
Time to wake up and make a choice!
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