There'll be times in life when u wake up and realise that all along, you have been looking for something and you don't find it?

Either you continue with the search or give up what you are looking for?

People following me would have know that I face really bad stuff at work. It is unbearable, totally miserable to me. Whole load of craps!

People growing up w me would have know that me being happy, it's e utmost important principle. I can be wout money, wout a job but so long I am happy, that's all that matter.

Afterall, u often hear ppl saying life is short, isn't it?

I really think that after so long, nothing or no one else matter more than me. At the end of the day, if I'm not haPpy, I dont even care if u are.

Treat me well, u'll get it back in multiple times.

U can say that that's selfish of me. But what's wrong w loving ownself more than anything else?

You really think that in this world, there are still people out there willing to sacrifice n die for u?
Sorry lor.. I won't die for anyone except:
U're my dad, my mom, my sis, my husband or my children.

Sorry friends, I'm being truthful, I can't possible give up my life for u, but I will always give u the best I could.

I know how contradicting I am. I know how I've said how much I love my job. But seriously, things change. The person may not have change, but the way things work may have. 6 months are more than enough a time period to test things.

So long I began shutting things off, you know that you have no case on me.

Likewise for rs. Once I shut off, it means enough.

Dreams and plans don't always work out, do they
Neither do birthday wishes. So why are we still celebrating bday every year?

Emo much? Yes, I am.

I feel sad at myself and if I continue to plan or think abt my life 2yrs down, I would want nothing but e best and fulfilling my dreams as far as possible.

p.s works suck big time! I wish leonardo can bring me in to my dreams and I fucking kill those people I hate in my dream. May them suffer e pain before they wake up in shock.

p.p.s note to self: nv to realise u are not suitable for each other only at the point of getting married. Bloody painful and irresponsible on any one party.

p.p.p.s I didn't know all along I have been assuming things that won't be happening anytime soon. God damn assumption.

Time to wake up and make a choice!

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我已经很久没有这么开心了。
原来快乐来自于自己。
快乐可以这么简单。

今天的我，真的像回到了3年前的我。
期待来工作，期待今天。

不要问我为什么，我真的不知道。
只觉得，今天就是不一样。
也许，是因为我可以很轻松的把一直放在心中的话好好的对自己说一遍。
也许，是因为我昨晚睡得很好。
也许，真的想让自己过得好一点。

之前，有人写道。。。
现在的你，过的是你原本计划的生活吗？
今天，我也整理了之前的人生写照。
并没有，我并没有达到我想要的生活。

但是，现在的我，正努力让自己往更好的人生前进。
虽然说未来我因该会活在两个人的世界和有自己的家庭，
但，我，还是很不愿把我要的生活因为其他人而被约束。

所以，我PO我/自己的想要，多过我因该包容的两个人。
自己能过得开心，不是这世上最重要的吗？

25岁的我，一定要比现在还强。

我的理想钻戒

超级无敌之漂亮到不行。

为什么可以这么美？！

These will supposed to be sent when I'm still in KL! -_-

Yoohoo! No wireless access in e hotel n since I'm with e bf, I'm off data connection!
But I miss the twitter peeps so I've tot of this wonderful way to update through my blog by using e bf's data plan n tweeting through my blog! Mhahaha!

Currently at kenny rogers @ berjaya times sq!
Other than huge n getting lost in kl malls, there're no words to describe how we feel.
Oh and the bf bought me a gucci landyard just before we depart this morning. Sweet or what?
He just spent what he earned frm his ippt silver $$ on me! I feel so guilty! And we finally checked in to our room @ 4pm earlier on. Super duper cosy room! Such a luxury lar! Google berjaya club room yah! We'll be there for 2 nights.

Waiting for food now. Kenny rogers here is different! Don't say we silly or what k!
There's black pepper or smoked bbq chicken here hor! Boohoo!
Oh food here! Shall continue tonight!

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Back now @ e hotel. Dinner was superb!
Really much nicer here. Our initial plan was visiting chinatown then foot reflex then watch inception!
But e show time's unfavorable and seats are selling fast, so wehave to put the movie on hold! Waiting for room service now. May e food be good too! Haha! We purposely have early dinner so we can have some food now! Njoy life heh!

Did foot reflex and figure our way to chinatown. In fact e bf did cos I gave 2 misleading directions! So, lesson learnt. Let e bf lead e way from now on! Ahaha! Been great so far for our first day!

And my camera finally registered our location @ KL! after 7hrs since we reached! Mmm....shall see if it works well tml too! Cos we'll be heading to Genting!

Damn ambitious! We are just gonna find our way to get there for some rides!
Looking forward heh!
Alrighty.. Signing off now! Nights peeps!

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Back in SG now.
Didnt watch inception but we did catch Despicable me in 3D.
The queue on Sat morning at 10.30am was horrible man. Most shows were selling fast. And most are hot sellers like 'Toy Story 3, Despicable Me, Inception, Eclipse and Ong Bak'.
Wah piangs, can you image so many shows and they're all selling fast?
Either the cinemas are small or they are movie lovers. And the shows are in English.. i tot they have hard time understanding English? Mad that we couldnt get seats for Inception.
Lucky that Despicable is not bad. But me being me, cartoons are not my toplist. so it's only so-so nia.

Did went up to Genting as planned. Quite an experience getting the tics. And yes, the camera GPS works well. The rides! Woohoo! The tower drop was damn shiok la. Super long queue for like a min of excitement.
I conclude myself being too stress in SG hence need such thrill!

Went for yet another foot reflex just before coming back. Thai one. Hen shu fu can!
Glad that the bf enjoyed the trip as much as I did.
Really njoying life there.

Bought a top, a pair of heels and a bag.
Bf bought a top.
Mostg of our moolahs were spent on food. As usual what.
HY + BF = FOOD!

only downside of this whole trip, the flight timings could be better.
was damn tired but the time we reached SG.
and flight was delay due to NDP... goodness!

shall catch up on my shows now.
photos to be up soon!
all very nicely taken cos cfm chop already QC by us!

till then.. it's back to reality now!

Been sending out job applications since the start of the week.
Please let me have some good news over the next 2 weeks.
I need to get out of this place with poor management structure, unjustifiable staff welfare and most importantly, poor leadership and supervisory skills.

Anyone who has any job openings, please let me know.
Thanks in advanced!

I really hate my job!

I really hate my job!

I really really hate my job!

I really really hate my job!

I really really really hate my job!!!!