i actually went to read my entries po in 2009 while waiting for @crissyeo to wake up from his sleep.
came across my last po in year 2009, dec 28 and this is what was written:

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in 2010 (internally);

i want to be more responsible for my actions;
i want to be nicer;
i want to be who i really am;
and i want to be heard.

in 2010 (externally);
i want to learn to listen to his problems more;
i want to hang out with the girls more;
i want to chill with paperfishy more;
i want to read more;
i want to travel more;
i want to complete my degree with a bang;
i want to start planning for our future;
and i want to accept him better.

money can buy me anything but it cant buy me happiness from within.
women from Venus loves to talk to share; and i talk to seek peace.

in 2010; i really want to be a nicer person than what i am this year.
i want to njoy life better cos i will only be 24 once!

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comparing it with what i po yesterday for 2010!

i'm POM for doing better than what i've set to achieve.

[for me to know, for you to find out!]

2 more days before we officially countdown to another GREAT year ahead! Was trying to do a review of my 2010 dramatic life (as usual) but realise that i cant really do so cos i've jumble all my tots between what happened in year 2009 - year 2010. Apparently, I have images of FM / Melody / Angela bday celebration at Zhou Zhuang, Qi's Convo and even Lynn ROM in me which I lump it into year 2010.

How mess up can I get?!

Anyway, here's how 2010 has been for me.

p.s. It's like myself being torn apart between the.hardworking vs. the.party

Major.Events:

Jan - birthday countdown @ Furama

Feb - Laopo's celebration @ Barrage

       - CNY & Valentine falling on the same day.

       - went house visiting @ Qi & Angela's place. Lou Hei @ Angela' 

Mar - FM / Angela' celebration @ Crab rest.

Apr - SHE' concert  

May - Went over to China, Nanning, Neimeng, Baotou over 5 days. Changed 3 hotels.

        - Studied for my exam.

        - Xiaozhu' concert

Jun   - SK' wedding 

Jul    - Went over to Indonesia, Tangerrang for a villagy lifestyle as well as a superb short work trip.

        - Head to KL / Genting as well.

Aug  - One month work from home.

Sep  - Partified with HH Club.

Oct  - Graduation on 7 Oct!

        - Visited Safari Halloween for the first time.

        - Did my first 10K!

Nov - BB died on me.

       - Dinner with BCF!!!! 

       - Cheryl darling finally settled down for good!

Dec - My 世界唯一, Carol Chow was engaged to Jason Liang.

       - Went on a superb long holiday to HKG for work & leisure with the cousins!

       - And that I met you!    

just by listing the above, it seems to be an eventful year heh. And a year full of ups & downs.

Ended my 2.5 yrs of studies and had my best Unisim life only at the last sem. (too lazy to link up) but i did po an entry on that. LOL

Ended also, a 2.5yrs r/s which i nv tot i would. And i honestly like the phase from LPM '一山还比一山高'

I am so wrong and blinded and believe what i tot shld be the case. Even believe is spelt with 'LIE' if you notice. Nonetheless, this is still the best decision i have ever make.

To know the true you and the real me. And for that, I'm grateful for the courage and heartless i possess within me. Lesson learnt. A disgusted truth. 

The aftermath of a dramatic series, not measuring at all any losses... I have BCF, LPM, @paperfishy & @joelim and everyone else to count on. I also get to know a 'friend' better and I can never understand how i can manage to have different type of friendship with every single person who crossed my life & them who i deem deserve my friendship. Very individualist and that's the reason why every single one of you is special in my heart.

Of cos, the best ought be being introduced to HH Club by BCF! which totally bring me to who i am now. Only then i realise i haven been me for quite a while. =)

It doesnt matter to me anymore if i save / spend how much so long as i'm happy doing what i want to do.

HH Club was different from the vball gang years ago though there's some similarities of being big group and that everyone is from different backgrd but come together for a sole purpose. Simply loves everyone there to bits cos we r party animals!!

Needless to say, LPM is still going strong. We have fen back with us. I meet laopo after work to travel back together. Even have regular running session. There's no need to mention how proud I am of her now that she can do 10 rounds! and at times, more motivated and determine than me! Cheesecake cafe is a bonus for elvin' split second and i will want to go there anytime!

And to @paperfishy, though she will nv read it! I wish for you to be happy, to be burden-free and to be blessed & loved for who you are for the rest of your life! My darling precious always!!

And 2010 was also a year where my closest gfs settled down. 2 of them somemore. mad loves weddings and it's wonderful seeing them settling down!

Finally, to @crissyeo! even though it has been barely a month and that 50% of the time i was away... thanks for your assurance and giving in to me. thanks for being ever straight-forward! with no image in mind! and for being able to read me. I know now may not be the best & fairest period i can give you at this point, but i'm grateful and appreciate your understanding. <3 I'll remember your 'message in a bottle!'

Looking forward to what 2011 will be for us! loves

and below are the screen shot of my FB status throughout 2010!

personal fav are highlighted! Wheee!!!

Till then!

Have a great party on 31st Dec peeps!!!

The coming year shall be a better one for all!

xoxo

HY

Citysq's Fish Manhattan
Hougang Mall
Punggol Park
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PS's Ajisen
Orchard Central
313 Somerset
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161, 83
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Ion's BKT
Taka
Paragon
Heeren
Centerpoint
OG Orchard
PS
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Totally blown away!

Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld

一個人的自己也許會覺得很寂寞，很累，需要有個依靠。

兩個人的我們也不見得是件好事。有可能需要面對的比一個人來得多，來的煩，來的累。

想想，還是一個人來得好些。

疼也能疼自己多一些，愛也愛自己多一些。

即使是要把關心分給別人，也不許要向任何人交待。

我想，我真的怕了。

好喜歡現在的我，雖然，覺得有人提醒些什麽也不錯。

還是朝著我要的未來前進吧！

加油咯！

i'm still not over the fact that the past months have been a crazily busy one that i can feel the tireness in my body (building up).  yet, i very much enjoy heading out still.

been disappointed twice for the week.
i tot there's supposed to be meet up and it turns up, they didnt remember.
and i didnt receive any texts from them.
what's this supposed to mean?
screw you for blocking my date.
dont xpect me to clarify or cfm any meetings cos u're not worth it.
not even when a sms is free.

there's only 7 days a week. and if you dont know how impt after office hour is for me, it's bloody impt.
if you wanna wait till u're free to meet me, then u wait till i'm free to meet you. ssss.

anyway, life's been good.
even if work sucks like hell, i still pretty njoy doing it simply cos i feel good finishing my job.
and i have lesser whinning now since i hardly go for classes anymore.
probably avoiding the peeps for a while.
afterall, it's approaching year end and things suppose to tie down.

not like i have a lot of leave to clear, but i'm clearing it already cos i'll be outta office abt 2 weeks in dec.
i cant wait for the year to end and for a better start to 2011.
this yr gonna be one of the 'worst plan' year with no plans in mind for 31st and 1st.
but whatever, i know things will fall into place eventually.

drama.mama sat. i love having ME time.
time where i can ponder on my tots.
*what.makes.me.smiles*

till then...
i couldnt be feeling any better since...

credits to lunch kk.

AJ:"当我想起你..." says:


capricorns are down-to-earth

Tradition is important to you

You do not always like short-term relationships because it seems such a waste to spend several months of time, money and effort on something that won't last

Cars are important to a Capricorn...

*** for me to know. for you to find out. ***